Raw Chocolate. What an incredible teacher!!! I mean, like WOW! People talk about pot or mushrooms being teacher plants, but no one ever really seems to call chocolate that (not that I’ve heard, anyway). I think they should. Raw live cacao taught me so much and opened my eyes in ways I never even imagined were possible.
So now that my 30 days are up, I’m so TOTALLY staying raw, as I indicated in earlier posts, because even though the detox is hard sometimes, I’m getting so much done. For example, I’ve NEVER kept a journal or blogged about anything for 31 consecutive days. I’ve never had the staying power or attention span before. And I know that I can’t go back to feeling the way I did before. I just can’t tolerate the concept of it again. Even on Day 30, when I was so upset, there was a heavy feeling in my stomach that I noticed was not there. I never noticed its presence until it was gone. And I felt like even though I was experiencing much more consuming sadness on one level, I could totally see myself coming out of it more easily because of all the raw food I’ve been eating. And that really helped me to stay raw and not want to stuff the emotions down with my old favorite, Mexican food.
I figured out why I was so upset on Day 30, BTW. I needed green. Not greens, not to eat, I needed GREEN! I needed to spend time among living, breathing, green plants! I went to my local Co-Op today, and when I saw the little Herbarium with the baby kale, tomato seedlings, jalapeño kiddos … I almost started crying! I felt like maybe in a past life I had eaten their ancestors or something. I know. I sound like a comPLETEly crazy hippie! I’m totally aware of how weird I sound. But that’s what it felt like. Oh, and there’s more. I felt like they were welcoming me home, like they were trying to say, “Oh, it’s so good to see you again! We’re so glad you can hear us and see us again. We’ve been waiting patiently for you to return.” Again, hippie-dippie sounding, but it was one of the most profoundly happy moments of my life. Like finding a long-lost friend. It was actually up there with my nephew being born or making love with Jason for the first time.
There is something about eating live foods that makes you so much more appreciative and in touch with living things, and you feel this love for things around you that you just can’t feel any other way. It’s pure ecstasy.
Sighhhhhhhhhh ….
So what did I learn? Well, for starters, I learned that:
- I really CAN break an addiction, and that anyone who says that cooked food isn’t addicting should try giving it up for 30 days
- I’m MUCH stronger than I ever gave myself credit for
- I can sit at a table with the sights and smells of my old eating patterns and still be happy and satisfied
- a lot of my problems with Jahn were not with Jahn, they were with how I was chemically messed up because of my diet
- I have more capacity to be Love than I knew was even humanly possible
- I actually ENJOY gardening!!! (No you don’t understand, I used to HATE it!!!)
- superfoods really are the best way for me to remineralize, stay full, and are my key to success
- organic food actually, physically, really-and-truly DOES taste better
- I can tell when something isn’t organic, because I can taste the chemicals and sense lack of nutrients
- I will have to lose a few friendships due to my new lifestyle, but I can still be grateful for what they offered me when I had them, and look forward to deeper, more meaningful relationships in the future with people who understand about raw food
- it isn’t just that my path in life is to help others find their path in life; I’m supposed to help people go raw (that want to and ask for my help) so that THEY can figure out that path for themselves when they get the clarity raw food offers! (Geez, could I have BEEN more self-centered and egotistical to think that I was the one with the answers to other people’s issues???)
- better than 85% of all disagreements and arguments I’ve had with people were based on what both of us were eating, not on the thing we were arguing about — when 2 people are cooked, how can they really get to who they really are? In my opinion, they can’t. And if you can’t even get to your true self, how can you expect to show it to and share it with others? Or how can they do the same for you with their true selves?
- I had NO idea how great sex could be. Holy COW! If you think sex is fun eating cooked food, go raw for a month. JEEBUS!!!!!
- dreams had while sleeping are meant to all be intense, vivid and in living color
- I DO NOT HAVE TO BE IN CONSTANT PHYSICAL PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- my patience and my fuse are MUCH longer than I ever thought they could be
- bad things happened to me when I was little, but I can process them and move forward; they don’t get to rule my life anymore
- power, vitality, strength, vigor, prosperity and excellent health are all mine for the taking — I just have to be willing to ask for them and know, truly KNOW that they are my birthright.
- I don’t have to give up my family in order to give up cooked food
- I don’t think I could ever have a partner who was cooked again (but fortunately, Jay and I are life partners)
- I don’t have to stink or use deodorant ever again
- getting a sunburn is not an inescapable thing just because I’ve spent 5 minutes in the sun
- my thyroid can heal itself, and the doctors that told me that I’d never get off the meds and have a healthy, properly functioning thyroid were W-R-O-N-G, WRONG!!!
- I will never have to have a “disposable” body part removed ever again because of something I ate, while I’m told that I suddenly got sick for unknown reasons (I now know that I made myself sick, one spoonful at a time).
- there really IS such a thing as a natural high!
- the Universe (Omniverse) truly is conspiring to make me succeed in everything I desire
- you can pick your friends and you can pick your nose, but you can’t pick your friend’s nose (aka, you can’t stick your fingers into someone else’s business and force them to eat raw food with you, no matter how much you love them).
- Love should always be given the respect of being written with a capital “L”
- my level of Love and gratitude for Jason will continue to grow with every passing day
- if I ever go bankrupt and lose everything, it won’t be because of food choices I made that forced me to turn everything I own over to the medical establishment.
- every step of this journey has been worth it, and even though it won’t always be easy, it will always be more pleasurable and preferable to sitting on another cold, white doctor’s table, or God forbid, lying on another operating table.
- YOU ARE WHAT YOU EAT!!!